how much would be enough

That question keeps lingering on my mind. I know I did something, everything humanly possible to try and get her back but to no avail. I still don't have her back in my arms so I can hold her and kiss her like I did before. I still cannot hear her laugh, see her smile, hear her when she talks. Now, why is that? Is it because I still haven't done enough?

yup! she did!

As far as I know, I went to hell and back to try and her back. She burned down the bridges where we once stood. I rebuilt it over and over again and tried to fetch her form the other side so we can once more stand in the middle together. I went to her and even begged her to come back because I am willing to ignore everything that has happened. I honestly don't want to think that I am the victim but logic dictates that I was and logic dictates that I shouldn't be the one running after her, it should be the other way around. But for a while non of it really mattered to me. I went to her and initiated the reconciliation, even agreed to, you know, court her again despite not knowing the reason why I should.

Is going to hell and back for her not enough? What else could I have possibly failed or forgot to do? 

I have no idea.

Just recently I watched this movie the elevator girl on +YouTube , where the name of the character was really awesome @Liberty Taylor. Well this movie somewhat has a resemblance to my story. You know, things were going on pretty smoothly, they loved each other but then again one of them started to think it's not going to work, then eventually they broke up. 

One thing I liked about the story is how the people around them took a stand on things for both the lovers. They each had their contrasting take on the matter. All of them did what they could to prove what they believe is right. One of the Friends of the guy who was hell bent to break them up, made it a point to set up a date with this awesome girl. But his secretary, made sure that she did everything to give them both a second chance with each other, even going as far as setting up events that would lead them to meet up with each other, and so it happened.

This part of the story never happened to me. Sure they said stuff about, what she did to me was not fair and all, said something below the belt maybe, I don't know. None of them however tried to bring us together so we could talk or just see each other and maybe ignite something again. 

All they they told me to do, is to give her time and space and that in essence if i didn't give her the time and space, I would be the antagonist in her life. They all supported her even as they know she did something wrong. Well that is what you would expect from a true friend, I get that. They all said I have their vote of confidence, but none of them initiated something that could bring us back again. I not blaming them for supporting her, I kinda just wished they played a little bit of the cupid role for us.

I wish it is still not too late for some of them to do that not just for me, but for us. You know create a situation where we could meet or something, get trapped in the sand bar of +Camiguin damn I would a year of my life for every minute I can get to spend with her there. Maybe be placed on the hot spot with +Boy Abunda or +Wish Ko Lang  or +People Finder something I don't know. Maybe trap us "accidentally" inside the +Big Brother house! That would be really nice.

I know it will not guarantee that we would be together again after, but God knows I'd take what I could get even it is just a minute with her. That is how much I miss her and if that is how much it would take, I will do it in a split second.

P.S.

To anybody who can play cupid for us and actually bring us back together again, I will be honored to have you as the best man or maid of honor as the case may be! hahaha I am dead serious!

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