my vision, my passion, my purpose in life

This is probably the last post on this thread of blog so I want to thank all the readers who looked for this blog or merely chanced upon it. I hope you enjoyed the events of my life it you cheap bastards! lol.

Well anyways, again thank you so much! I never talked to anyone about my situation but right now, I think the whole world knows! which is way cooler!

For those however who sees this for the first time today, just a suggestion so you wont get lost and stuff, start reading from the bottom blogs and read up until you reach this particular blog. But whatever makes you happy if you want to start here, well, be my guest!

Now this particular blog's aura may seem to be a bit lighter compared to the first four I wrote on this thread. Well let's just say that I bumped my head all of a sudden and I have discovered stuff that changed things for me.

Speaking of discovering stuff, for a very long time now, I thought I was born under the water lamb zodiac sign. Interesting thing is, that the zodiac calendar for the water lamb started the day after I was born so technically, although on the same year for the Gregorian calendar, I was actually still under the previous year which is the year of the horse. That being the fact, it is therefor, my year this new year which is the year of the horse and if you checked on the link on the blog before this one, me and her, we are actually 90% compatible with is each other and accordingly, it doesn't get any better than that so that percentile is supposedly a perfect match, but she doesn't have room for magical moments like that too bad!

Anyways, I was actually born on the year where many artists, geniuses, athletes, and leaders were born  well, some of them you may know, here they are:

Louisa May Alcott, Chopin, Davy Crockett, Ella Fitzgerald, Aretha Franklin, Sandra Day O'Connor, Rembrandt, Teddy Roosevelt, Sir Isaac Newton, @Barbara Streisand, @Cindy Crawford, Cynthia Nixon, @Denzel Washington, @Harrison Ford, @Jason Biggs, @Jackie Chan, Jerry Seinfeld, @John Travolta, Leonard Bernstein, @Oprah Winfrey, @Paul McCartney, @Rembrandt, @Ashton Kutcher, @Emma Watson, @Josh Hartnett,@ Katie Holmes, @Kristen Stewart, @Kobe Bryant, Genghis Khan (my favorite), Emperor Kangxi and Yongzheng of China’s Qing Dynasty

But anyways, just so things are clear with everyone, the man who wrote the four blogs before this is the same man doing this right now.

I still love her no doubt about that as I view love to be as constant as the law of gravity. We may not see it but it affects all of us, big or small, light or heavy, the same law of gravity applies.

I still want to be with her, if that is what the wise guy have prepared for us, I will have no complains about it, but I will not in any way, try what I have tried many times. I mean if we get back again, because I still love her and want her, and I'm still open to the possibility of ending up with her, that would be awesome! but if not, then f@ck it, it can't be helped. I'm done trying.

I still want to have a happy family with her definitely which is my, ultimate goal in life, to have a family. To be the best dad to my kids, and a better man everyday for my wife.

Speaking of family, I actually went to attend church yesterday and despite being raised a catholic and studying with nuns and priests I forgot that yesterday way the feast of the holy family. Now, there was my Buddha moment, funny because it was inside a catholic church.

Any how, I saw lots of family attending the celebration and for some reason, for the first time, I did not feel any envy or jealousy towards them. That particular moment, for the first time, it didn't enter my mind the regret of not having my own family because I waited in vain for someone. The message that I got from that vivid scene was the idea that, If I am very passionate about having a family, and that I know I am going to be what I have always wanted to be a.k.a. best daddy/best husband, then it doesn't really matter who I end up getting married with. I will have the family of my dreams regardless of who my wife is.

And, it made a lot of sense! For three months I have been waiting for her to comeback that I have lost sight of what I really wanted. I wanted a family of my own and if keep on looking for her or waiting for her to come back, then it is her that I want to have, not a family.

What I really want is a family, so, I guess I really don't need her for that.

I mean sure, if it is with her, it would be awesome I suppose I'm not sure at least not anymore I'm not. I know I will take care of her, treat her right, never hurt her, encourage her, support her in her career and all, provide for her, provide for the kids, make things work and the whole nine yards, even throw in hugs and kisses 24/7, that I am 1000% sure I will do. And all that, I can do too, to anyone who I will end up with!




My kind, is almost running out almost extinct because we have been hunted by women who wants a stable happy relationship lol.

But anyway, I am back on track, I know what I really want to be, What I really want to have, What I really have as a purpose in life. All I need now is someone who wants the same. I mean, name a girl who doesn't want to be treated right by her man! I don't think there is any! Well...maybe there is one...but hey.."not my problem anymore, it's your problem anymore"! lol

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I wish you all the best and good luck!