I discovered several ways that won’t get her back

That is not my original idea, I think some +Thomas Alba Edison  when he was asked what he thought about failing some seven hundred times before he was finally able to make the light bulb as we know it now work. He said, I didn't fail seven hundred times, I discovered seven hundred ways not to make a light bulb and when I was done with all of them, I was left with nothing else but the one that makes a light bulb works.

can't wait to hear this from her

Well anyway, there were several things I did after what happened to us. Believe you me, I have never read enough books about psychology, human behavior and self help like ever before. I have tried so many things but still I don’t have a working light bulb Mr. Edison. But don’t you worry, when I am done trying those that doesn't work to get her back, I am sure what I will be left with is the one that works!

Some of what I have read is to stay offline, create a space between us or something like that. Some suggested that I should not show that I need her because she might take advantage of it. Well if I really need her in my life, what is wrong with letting her know about it right? I mean, I take it that I cannot show my cards but to deny that I need her in my life, that part, I am not sure I completely agree.

Fact is, I tried a lot of things to try and get her back, and the fact is, right now, despite not doing anything physical, I am still trying to get her back.

How you ask?

I have been good so can I get my wish too?

Are you forgetting something, its Christmas right?  

So I am wishing!

I am wishing that she would text me, or call me or email me or ask someone to say something for me or to let me know where she is, how she is.

I am wishing that, some of our friends would use another number to text me anonymously her number so I can finally make contact once again. It is safe that way because I wouldn't

know the identity of the friend who sent me the number right?

I am wishing that when it is my turn to sign the roll, she would be there with me, like I have always dreamed of from the moment the two of us became a couple.

I am wishing that our friends +Louie Andrada and his wife would play Santa Clause and give us the gift of time together, or +aBBy Dayawen play cupid and ignite our love once again, or our lawyer friends to plea our case and our judge teachers to decide on our mock trial. Or maybe Ruth Mae can make sense of things for her, or for Andeng to tell her how they fix things between her and her boyfriend or Vida to tell her how it is a lot better to be with someone who loves you than someone else who is not time tested, or Lerma to tell her, you don't leave a wounded man behind so she would turn around, or Kangs Calde to tell her how to keep things intact even after a very long time, or for Philip Rivera to tell her, that tragedy is not losing a loved one, but having all the love you need and throwing it all away or maybe, just a maybe, Beryl whom she gives high regards, would tell her how hard it is to find someone who would not look you in the eye while telling a lie to you or someone that would sacrifice his own happiness for you, Maybe then she would realize that, our love is worth saving, it is worth another shot. Maybe perhaps Genesis "ngitit" to tell her, if the guy is not fighting for you, then he doesn't love you or if you don't fight for the man you claim you love, then you don't love him, you probably just got blinded by the shinny new object. Or the young Celeste Marie to tell her, that all it it takes is a commitment and everything will be okay even to two different persons.I never asked for anyone's help when I first tried to be with her, but clearly this time, I need your help friends.

Heck, I'd welcome any form of help even from random people, those beggars I spared coins with before, the blind man I helped walk across the street, the hungry man I bought siopao for, damn he was hungry the siopao fell on his hands because he was so excited to eat it, I need your help stranger!

I am wishing that, she would realize that I am still waiting for her to realize that I am still here waiting and that she would not be overtaken by anger, pride, or any negative emotions towards our past because that part is over now.

That the set back was just a set up for a COME BACK. That all she needs to do is...to say so and I will take her back no questions asked no if's and no but's.

I am wishing that we could start over because no matter what happened between us, she would always have me at hello.

I don't want things to be like what we had, because it sucked. If it hadn't, it would not have ended. So I wish she would learn the words, clean slate, tabula rassa, that it is possible to start over, so we can write new things, start over.

 I just love her so much that if I were to choose a woman in every lifetime, I will choose her every time, over and over again, even if I know, she will hurt me in the end, over and over again.

P.S.
If anybody who reads this knows who we are, please don't let her know. I don't want to look weak because of my love for her, despite that being the truth.